not a good day for " science"

sometimes when you are kind with people...they think u are obviously stupid...big mistake!!!!
i'm sick and tired of 2 faces people...i'm sick and tired of pretenders, i'm sick and tired of fucked up lies!!! really now...get a life you people...a real one or live in ur imaginary life but far away from me...
the main point is that whenever you want to help people...they see in u and endless source of good, they take advantage of that and take u for granted...beeep again big fuckin mistake!

why people are soo fuckin stupid...most of them and cannot accept the idea of living together without useless conflicts...
nevermind...to end this stuff i wanna point out that i hate hypocricy and all it's hidden shapes and i've had enough of it....

p.s fuck off...

ironic

many people have asked me why i have this ironic status everywhere...what does it mean? what i wanna say?
i told them...nothing...it's just a mood...just a way of feeling...not that i am ironic, i mean i am but this is not the point. i see time ironic f.e or life...it's like life is mockin you.
yeah i see that ironic...how u perceive a thing in a way and how that thing turns out to be something else....ironic ini't?
or else...like in the same time on 2 different channels you listen to same news but even though the core is the same the news looks totaly different from a chanel to another... is like telling a lie dressed in a truth coat...
as i can see it it's kinda hard to tell 2 true things about a matter in 2 different ways...but meaning the same thing...like on 1 way u deny it conscionsly and on the other hand u approve it conscionsly....funny, no...just ironic!
i don't expect you to understand...i don't want to is just another fucked up theory that i wrote in the so called "public diary"...
i am really sleepy now...and it's like an entire night waiting for me...but i'm really not in the mood. what would i do now? jump, run, hide and deny any conflictual dilema of the heart...pass on a box and move on to other level...shut up and kiss the rain, close the eyes and open my umbrella...sit down and dance and fall asleep and forget to dream....

p.s i miss paris....

english homework....and a cig in the rain...

october rain outside...in old bucharest..but i'm waiting for november one...why? dunno...i guess it's like old times and for me the rain equals november...at least in the autum...
i like this weather is my kind...like i said last year is london weather in paris and i feel like home...
where? i also don't know...i guess i will figure that out later...maybe my home is where u are...always on the road...everytime in other city and stuff like that....
will i ever get tired? maybe someday but not now...now i feel like i have to go further...to move on to new places...new people wait for me to meet them...others...the ones i already know...i left behind...not for long but some of them got used to me like that, to be left behind...so what? i don't care. yes i am selfish and what? i never forget!!!

i just remebered what somebody said to me long time ago: kiddo u're hard to forget and banned to remember...maybe...maybe not i guess it's how u are perceived by others
i don't mind to figure that out as long as i make sense to you...
anyways...i realized i can have a very deep conversation with someone i never met before...he accidentally bumps into my mail...and sends me by mistake a note...and so an entire thing is developed...how come? why do we feel this need and curiosity out of the blue to connect with people we didn't meet face to face and have a great conversation? i guess is the human spirit within..or just a great day for making new connections...who knows?

what time do i leave the office, he asks! well i don't have a office...i'm a freelancer, i answer. i face the world by my own brand...i don't act on behalf of others but i have a cool attitude to stand for...and so he is silent and thinks..
u still there, i ask? still no answer...and yet..i get it! yes i am...i'm shoked and inspired in the same time...
i say to him: leave this for other day...now i have to go...i shall talk to you again or never..i guess it's a matter of faith..or choice call it as u wish. and so i go!

i also realized that these days in bucharest...i keep on hearing ur name..it's bizzare..why? another question wid no answer...is not that u have a very common name and this is even more weird.
all in all...i must leave now. where? u shalll find out when u see me there ...untill that keep in mind one thing: most of human life is wasted in waiting...so stop doing that...and njoy the ride.

p.s i love you

hidden in a belgian box...

un frappe...o tigara si the sound of church bells...undeva in piata mare in sibiu...si da u were rite 4 days were to short..but intense si la urma urmei asta e ce conteaza.
next time is my turn to run away to you...si noiembrie e o luna buna petru asta...asa ca expect the unexpected, the box has to travel si o data cu ea si noi...

sunt multe de spus...dar si mai multe de simtit..is like i told u feelings hidden in gestures...si deja am spus tot...and u know it si e enough :)

restul ramane intr-o poveste inceputa undeva departe intr-o tara mica si cocheta...intr-o seara fumand o sisa si acceptand o provocare...si oui je suis cap... :)

and the story goes on...departe...si noi o data cu ea si asta e doar inceputul...is the moments that take ur breath that matter...

p.s finnaly am avut chef sa scriu aici...
p.s 2 a trebuit sa ajung la sibiu pentru asta.. :)
p.s 3 se lipamai... mult :D
p.s 4 ur getting to be a habbit wid me :)
p.s 5 hidden in a belgian chocolate box :P

lost in liege....

different place..same story..or almost but the core is the same...again i keep for myself the essence...what i can say is that:

1. thanks Pat for hosting - great house as i said :)
2. thanks Fred for facebook pictures...i look really waisted :P
3. great time and talk with u Gosia...hope to see u again soon
4. and yeah again je suis cap...and i know u are also...so..u already know what i mean :)
5. thanks for the morning frappe and croissant and...the rest...stays b/ween us...

si da...de data asta e for real :)

luxembourg before sunrise....

this time all i have to say is that....

1. glad to see you again
2. nice to meet you
3. thanks for the ride at the hospital
4. und yes je suis cap... :)

the rest of the story is just for me...and for those that lived it with me...

hope to see you again...soon...

lots of love...

vanilla sky si o poveste cu iz de toamna din nürenberg...

and here i am..sitting on this bridge and having this wonderful view..e prima oara cand scriu un blog live...imi aprind o tigara si ma uit in jur, e destul de liniste doar cateva cupluri la brat se plimba pe maulul raului...felinarele palpaie iar frunnzele incep usor usor sa cada...hmmm ce fain miroase a toamna...si gata asta fu ultima zi de vara din anu asta.. :)
e un pic cam frig insa...e totusi placut, ma cuprinde o senzatie de deja-vu si ma intorc un pic cu gandul la paris..acu cateva luni...si intorcand capul in stanga mea ochii mi se fixeaza pe numele strazii de langa mine...parisstraße ... unu din momentele in care un zambet iti este smuls cu drag si apoi se aseaza starea de liniste si zen again...
imi aduc aminte ca am si cafeaua nelipsita de altfel langa mine si mai sorb un pic...cu grija parca sa nu se termine desi e inca plina si ma reintorc in cadru...parca as sta in fata unui tablou si mi-as pregati pensulele sa-l pictez...
aici totu e fain...si lucurile s-au asezat la locul lor si desi maine o sa o iau iar din loc...povestea de toamna e gravata deep inside for a long time now...in sfarsit dupa atata fuga am putut sa ma odihnesc...e fain aici chiar si fara el...si ridic ochii catre cer...stelele palpaie si parca ma indeamna sa le urmez, ma ridic imi iau cafeaua in mana, sting tigarea si pornesc catre sfarsitul aleei...hmm ce fain aici incepe un drum si mai interesant...las podul in urma si plec cu gandul ca povestea va continua...in alta parte, altadata...cu altcineva...

i gotta feelin....

and here i go again...paking my stuff and trying not to miss the 5 am flight to the next destination...
old habits die hard...and as i said before a freak like me needs infinity...and even so it's not enough...i can't stay foot...i just i feel that call inside my veins that's yelling for me to run as far as i can.
i came to a point in my life when this kind of lifestyle suits me best, trains, buses, airports, ships, cars...new people all day long, old friends, alone but still not and so on.
an old friend of mine asked me yesterday how can i be like that? how can i attach and detach so quickly from people...how can i share some moments wid somebody and after a couple of days i go and i forget and move on...it's not chaosoul?
no is not, i didn't manage to answer then so i will make it now, especially for u so u can have at least a small part of my perspective. i go, indeed i meet people indeed i get attached to them, or to him it depends but...i live that experience there, i praise the present moment, i live for it, i don't take it for granted, and i stoped making plans and schemes regarding that...so i am giving a chance to the unexpected to surprise me..and it always does it right... :)
it's a way of living...not taking it for a long term...no...but now it's what i need and that's it.
u don't need to get approval from anyone...u don't need to be accepted...u just need to feel free and awake :) you can hear the music if you know how to listen :)
so this time i got a feeling that...tonight's gonna be a good nite...and tm/row as well and so on...

p.s don't try to understand...just live it
p.s 1 yeah it keeps me non-bored and alive
p.s 2 i admit i am addicted...but not to you :)
p.s 3 i can hardly wait for my pictures to reflect what i will feel :)
p.s 4 you looked miserable...this time i am swy for u dude
p.s 5 when i'm berlin ur off to london..but when ur in front of me..."i'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her"
p.s 6 und jetzt bin ich weg...und nein ich habe dich nicht vergessen und hoffentlich wir treffen konnen...and who knows what destiny is plannig for us....this time

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